You are NOT pregnant!!!!

Ok....so many of you have been asking me for an update about the baby making stuff.



I think that sums it up....don't you? As much as I hate to see those words I would rather do this kind of test than the ones with the lines...I think I can see lines when there aren't any.

We tried on our own this month and did not get pregnant. I pretty much knew because I didn't feel any different. I can make myself have symptoms and I still wasn't having any so I pretty much knew. I didn't even cry this month...ok I might have had tears in my eyes but I didn't cry.

I talked to Dr. H and she said that I "have" to do fertility. Obviously, I don't "have" to do fertility. I could say "NO" but she brought up a good point. I just had surgery to increase my chances of getting pregnant. By the way, I had endometriosis on one side and some on my uterus. I also had 2 cysts....one which was completely covering the opening of my tube on that side. She removed all of it....I have pictures but I won't do that to you. So, I am fully recovered and this basically gives me a window of time where there is nothing there preventing me from getting pregnant. Hence the urgency by Dr. H. Also, I am getting "old". I didn't know that 30 was "old" but when you have fertility problems and you are "old" it makes it even harder to get pregnant.

Anyways....here we go again.

I have finally come to a realization....I really do want God's perfect timing. I also believe that He works through Doctors....I really do--our two amazing boys are proof of that. As I was praying Wednesday night in the bathtub....I said "ok God, as much as Eric and I want a baby....I really do want your will. If it is not time or you are protecting me from something then I am ok with that." Don't get me wrong....I REALLY want a baby. I know that God knows how badly we want a baby...and I KNOW that if I delight myself in Him, He will give me the desires of my heart.

So round 3 here we come!!! Please be praying with us that everything will go great and we will be blessed with miracle number 3 very soon!